I was in Edinburgh with Joyce and King Sin, visiting Faizi. It was a glorious sunny day and we had a lot of fun enjoying the old city of Edinburgh.

We ran the Edinburgh Half Marathon to raise some money for our group project, and in the end raised about £400 and damn right we finished the course!

These are some photos I took when I was in Blantyre, Malawi for my MEng project. It was a really fun experience, so cool to be actually making some difference in one of the world's poorest country!

Put ur ipod on shuffle and enjoy:)

Opening Credits:
[Not That Type of Girl - Camelia Feat. Urban Xchange]

Waking Up:
[All That I Need - Boyzone]

First Day At School:
[Start Of Something New - High School Musical]

Puppy Love:
[All Or Nothing - O-Town]

Fight Song:
[A Million Love Songs Later - Take That]

Breaking Up:
[Di Akhir Garisan - Ensemble]

Prom:
[Sweet Child of Mine - Sheryl Crow]

Life is Good:
[Memories - Cats]

Driving:
[Wisemen - James Blunt]

Flashback:
[I Believe in You - Il Divo and Celine Dion]

True Love:
[I Do (Cherish You) - 98 degree]

Wedding:
[Eyelash - Juliet the Orange]

Moment of Triumph:
[T-Shirt - Destiny's Child]

Death Scene:
[Laura - Scissor Sister]

Funeral Song:
[Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer]

End Credits:
[I Knew I Love You - Savage Garden]

So, after we went to Istanbul, the next destination was the beautiful town of Cappadokia. It was truely an amazing experience because the beauty of this place was not man-made, in contrast with Istanbul.

The rock formations were breath-taking and the people were very warm. Turkish nite was memorable sebab ade banyak awek cun!

These pictures were taken when I went on a roadtrip to Istanbul, Turkey with Dini and Adib in the summer '05. Damn, I looked freaking aweful, but hey... it was after all a backpacking vacation.

Hmm, trying to recall what I like the most about Istanbul...

Hmm, well Istanbul was a really amazing experience. I totally wanna spend the rest of my living days there. In fact, I could see myself owning a small B & B and welcoming like-minded backpackers. Istanbul gives a sense of tranquility and serenity that I have not found anywhere else. The food was amazing, and since it is an Islamic city, most stuffs were halal, thus making my backpacking experience so much more delicious!

The people were warm, and I adore the cultural experience. The place was rich with historical importance. In a sense, being there kinda reminded me of how small you are in a bigger and much grandiouse ancient civilisation. Though I must add that the civilisation wasn't that ancient.

Sultanehmed was a great padestrian area for touristas. Blue mosque was mind-blowing, Aya Sofia was humbling, seeing how 2 very different religions once shared the same place of worship. And Topkapi Palace was just grand.

If you wanna experience an amazing Islamic culture, definitely go to Istanbul!

So this is the "Hogmanay" pictures that I promised...

There wasn't a party at all...

and new year clubbing was so boring...

and I can't believe I got bored clubbing...

whatever happen to my clubbing days...

I'm scarred for life...

But overall, it wasn't bad at all, especially ushering the new year with some of my closest friends, though I wish all of them could be there with me. Ain't I one greedy silly bastard?

oh, for those who don't know, or are just plain ignorance, Hogmanay is the annual celebration of New Year in Scotland, rooted deeply in wiccan history. Sorta Halloween but for New Year, and no fancy dresses. It actually just a commercial and fancy name for New Year street party in Scotland. So once you know it, it didn't sound cool at all...

I only have most likely 5 more months in Scotland! Yay, a cause of celebration but I'm still hesitating on my next move. Should I stay for MSc or go back to M'sia to jumpstart my own career and be with my loved ones?

***still confuse***

Ok, so we drove down to Edinburgh from Manchester only to be told that the world famous hogmanay street party was cancelled due to seriously crappy Scottish weather... talk about ushering a new year in the most celebrated style ever...

Anyhow, it's new year!

Well, there are just a few things in my life rite now that need clarification, due to some ambigious statements I made in the last post...

First and foremost, apologies to those who felt compelled to be offended by it (well, knowing me I can't help the sarcasm in my apology). As life goes on after high school (or in my case, SBP) I had so many regrets over so many silly mistakes that I made. In saying so, I blame myself mostly for being stupid enough to commit some of those hillarious and totally out of this world mistakes, some which hugely influence my life over the years.

90% of the blame was on me, another 10% was circumstancial.

It took me this long to finally come clean with myself over those mistakes because it was plainly too painful to admit. Did I have a good life back in STAR? Well, I honestly shouldn't complain, seeing how much I achieved over those 5 years (seriously, I was an over-achieving nerd). However, I could've a better life elsewhere, probably achieve more things elsewhere too. But my no. 1 dissapoinment was the "not being appreciated" part, be it by the school (which I contributed to, alot) or by my so called batch... (well, back then I was an attention seeking whore, and probably still am now).

Well to be honest, a little bit more support and love is nice...

Hence, that was why I never bothered to keep in touch with them, because I honestly never felt apart of anything special at all. Nah, it clearly wasn't their fault...

But why the sudden change? Well, I need to move on with my life, I can't keep running away from it forever. Sooner or later all the bad things will catch up, and I rather face it like a man. I would probaby end up working with some of my old school-mates, and though I honestly couldn't care less about what they think of me, I rather it be a pleasant relationship. Professional but definitely pleasant.

There are too many unpleasant things in this life. It took me two deaths to see this, and maybe this was late to some, I damn hope it's not too late for me.

The more I pretend to ignore that 5 wasted years of my life, the more tormented I seem to be...

Well, not really "tormented" but you know what I mean.

Ok, maybe I got you more confuse and you are probably totally fed-up with my rambling. But bottom line is let's start new, fresh from any emotional scars, any ugly perceptions or any unforgiving judgements. I grew up alot this last 5 years and I am definitely not the same person who left STAR 5 years ago.

p/s; once I got back home, I will upload those Hogmanay pictures that I promise. I'm just too knock-out to be doing anything at all now (except meaningless rambling).

Today, after long dreading the coming of "the time"... the time to let go... I finally decided to actually acknowledge that I really do have some serious issues with a certain group of people... and it's about time to let it go, to MOVE ON.

Yeah, babeh... I'm moving on with my life...

Well actually, not like my life literally went to a stop after I left STAR, it's more like that I completely ignored whatever happened during that 5 freaking long years and whatever that came with that.

Most people who knew me back then, and who still thought that they knew me pretty well even now would be very surprise by this revelation, but part of moving on is to admit my mistakes and my regrets...

Now I decided to acknowledge that part of my life that makes me who I am today; a much happier person with more fulfilling and meaningful life.

This is my new year resolution!

(but things are not permanent in this life, especially not in my life)

And I will be back, with pictures of Edinburgh Hogmanay 2007!